This is in no way how I wanted to start a new blog that was hopefully going to be based on creativity and beauty.
But, I need to express some of this. I'm frustrated, anxious, confused.
This is not at all what I expected when we were coming home again. This is by far more stressful than work in the prairies.
When we came home first, we were so hopeful, and things seemed to be working to our advantage. We found work with Troy Brown pretty much right away. We did a job for him, and all seemed ridiculously positive and things seemed to be going well. I had hope that we wouldn't have to return to the prairies to work.
But since then, Troy has not called us. Not at all.
So then, Ryan has been working for John again. Which has always been an unorganized, and stressful ordeal. Also, Ryan is having a fair bit of pain from his wisdom teeth coming in, and we now may have to pay to get them removed... To put it another way. Ryan is pretty damn grumpy right now because he's in pain and work is not smooth.
So we also have money stress.
Not only because of the dental work, but also because we are paying over $6000 to the government for late taxes, and Ryan is the only one working.
I would be working with him if we were working for Troy. But as I was never hired by John, I am not working.
We talked about me coming to work with him, but that created a huge amount of anxiety in me. Every time he works for John, he's extremely stressed out.
This has been really hard for me to adjust to. I've become this working woman, and though I love living at home and taking care of our home, it doesn't feel fair.
But I also don't feel like me getting some minimum wage job is going to help.
So once again I feel stuck, just not in the same way as I did before.
I feel the need for guidance. I feel so lost right now.
Min wage jobs aren't so bad. I love mine more than any other job I had before. If you can get full time work, then you can make almost $1000/month which is 1/6 of your debt! What if Ryan worked for bills/living and you worked this summer just to pay off the debt?
ReplyDeleteOr during the summer, maybe you could apply at some nurseries so it combines making money with something you are interested in?
Being in debt totally sucks but there are ways to make it suck a little bit less.
Yeah, for sure... and the $6000 is only his 07/08 taxes, and we haven't even heard what the late charges will be.
ReplyDeleteBut ya know... Right now I'm feeling okay. I think this will all sort out eventually, and hopefully we can come to an even ground, where all can be happy and still productive.
That's how I feel right now anyway... We'll see how things go when Ryan gets home and we can finally talk.